I joke about my drinking--my continual search for the perfect gimlet or white wine, painfully cold.

So here is an experiment..there are 38 days until June 24th.  (I believe that this is the third time in three entries that I mentioned my 40th b-day.  This is a last mention until the 24th. I promise--I swear I am not trolling for gifts.)  But I want some clarity and to feel refreshed as I turn 40.  Funny that when I turned 10, I just wanted to be a double digit age.  When I was 20, I just wanted to be closer to 21 (Well that is bitingly ironic).  When I turned 30, I wanted to feel validated for any success because in my 20's it was a fluke but in my 30's, it would feel earned.  But turning 40, I just want to feel healthy and rested.

Since after having a few glasses of wine last night caused me to not sleeping well at all, I thought it would be best to give up the grape for a while (and the Citron).  Other than not drinking during my pregnancies, I can't remember going 38 days.  Holy Christ, it is going to be hard.  I drink when I am social, when I cook, when I want to celebrate the weekend or bitch about a bad day.  I joke about  my drinking--my continual search for the perfect gimlet or white wine, painfully cold.  Oh my God..I sound terrible and weak.

But I can do this..it is kind of like my personal lent.  And to stay honest, I am letting you, my 22 readers,  know as well.  (If you would like to join me, feel free.)  I will have to fess up if I slip--I would feel guilty if I didn't.

So tonight is day 1--I am curious what I is going to happen--am I going to get more done? Have more Wang family focus? Be less funny? Lose some weight?  Be really bitchy?  Not sure, but for Ching, I am going to be a really cheap date.