I haven't had a good night's sleep since the beginning 2005.

I haven't had a good night's sleep since the beginning 2005.  While it has been several years since my body was an oven to the bun and my girls rarely wake up during the night, the logical part of me believes that I should sleep like a rock.  Because, believe me, I am tired. But I don't sleep well because several times during the night, I wake up, think of something so ridiculous and then it's two hours later.

Last night I feel asleep at 10:16.  (I have this weirdo Rain Man like habit of checking the current time and figuring out how much sleep I would get if I slept soundly to 5:30.  That would be 7 hours and 14 minutes...7 hours, 14 minutes...yeah, like that is freakin' going to happen.)

1:00  Rachel is coughing.  It sounds terrible like she is going to make herself throw up.  I hope she doesn't throw up.  Did I remember to turn on her humidifier?  If I go in now, she is going to sense me in there and want to be held.  Give it a couple of minutes...

I am now dreaming that Laurel is throwing up on me and my work outfit.  I have to quickly change and get her to school.  But why am I taking her to school?  She has just gotten sick..I lie and tell the teacher she is fine.  But I when I go back home to change (did I drop her off with vomit on clothes--they know I lied!!), I have no clean clothes.  The cleaners can't find my stuff.  The cab that I take (why don't I drive) can't find my building in South Boston.  It's 3:00 and I have yet to call my manager and tell her that I am going to be late.

2:23  I am awake again.  I don't think I shouldn't have made Laurel the necklaces made with 100 Lifesavers for to celebrate the 100th day of school.  They are heavy and if one of those damn pieces of candy breaks..she is going to be crushed to only have 99.  I should have used something stronger than decorative ribbon.  Screw you, Martha Stewart.

2:42  Ching sounds like he is getting a cold.  God, I wish he would use that nose spray before going to bed.  Putting it on his pillow before he comes to bed would be rather obvious.

3:02  This would make an interesting blog.

3:16  Think I will check Facebook on my phone.  C'mon, will yourself to sleep!!

4:22  I fell asleep but now I am awake again.  I had that same stupid dream where I didn't realize I was registered for a college course until day before the final.  After 20 years, that dream still makes me panic.  What am I going to make Rachel for lunch? Yesterday was english muffin pizza..and she ate another kid's lunch.  Maybe today I will try the french toast waffle.  God, I hope I have enough milk.  Come on..you could get 1 hour and 8 minutes...

5:12.  And I could get 18 minutes...that will just have to do.