I feel like my 40 year old butt takes away part of my coolness.

I am still processing the humiliation of the day.  I haven't uttered a peep about this until now...

I work out at a gym in my office building.  This is a no-nonsense work out...I get in and out, shower and am back at my desk in a little over an hour.  Because I work out near colleagues, it could get awkward in the locker room.  But we are all adults and tend not to look.  This thought always made me feel okay until today.

I was getting dressed and let the towel drop, thinking that I was alone.  My big old butt was out and about and at that moment a co-worker...a very cute, fit 28 year old co-worker that has never had the ravage of child bearing affect her body, caught the sight of my huge ass.

I am not sure why I was so embarrassed.  Usually I am not really modest with my body...hell, typically, I wear my wonky boobs and stretched belly button as a badge of honor.  But having a person see my butt like that...knowing that I run four miles a day, five days a week...and it still looks like a big pumpkin with dimples.

Immediately I tried to get my cheap black cotton undies up and over my still water covered legs to cover up.  (Yes, my undies are cheap...I think it's a waste to wear expensive drawers over my ass.)  I didn't know what to say...should I have said something like..."see what happens when you have kids and get older?"  Or do I just make small talk and get the hell out of there?  I did the mature thing and got the hell out of there.

I feel like my 40 year old butt takes away part of my coolness.  A nice fitting trouser can only go so far and I have been able to blend in at work with my humor as if I was 28.  Now I have been exposed...in more ways than one.

Perhaps tomorrow will start a new routine of butt clenches at my desk....